Maranatha_810's Xanga

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Tue, 01 May 2007 17:46:44 GMT

I cannot sacrifice my vision and my dreams, my calling from God. For anything. Lord, take my life and let it be, ever only for You.

Weeeeelll.

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 06:59:33 GMT

For some reason---I just really want to write an entry. I shoooould be packing. But you know...

I'm just really content right now.

I'm going to Chicago tomorrow at 7 in the a.m. I hate driving, especially by myself for five hours. Bummer. Oh well I get to see my sister and my nephew! He's so cute, well he is my nephew....

Speaking of, I really love my family. Really, really. Growing up with six brothers and sisters has been interesting. And despite never having Happy Meals growing up...I loved it.

I am so excited to see what God has in store for the rest of my life. To see what He wants me to do. I'm ridiculously happy about it.

It's Spring Break. No classes. No homework. No Math. How incredible is that?

Florida...

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 06:59:45 GMT

is gorgeous.

God....

is beautiful.

My sunburn...

is painful.

Jesus....

is my life.

Food...

is wonderful.

Yeah....

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:21:36 GMT

That's pretty much what I get. Life's like that.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 21:21:56 GMT

Gradually, slowly.

It will fade

Lighten, meld into me

Making me by God's mercy

Better, Kinder

This cloud will dissipate

This gnawing constant will numb

This darkness will shatter

Streams of light will shine through

And I will be blinded by

the beauty of it all

and everything will be sharper, brighter,

more glorious than before,

Because I have been where it wasn't

Where all that I could see were shadows

All I could feel was sadness

All I could know is that sob in the back of my throat

And all I wanted to do was fall into an everlasting sleep.

HUMILITY:

State to be

Cup to drink

Heart to break

Knees to bend

Tears to fall

Glory to see

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 04:40:21 GMT

Craziness! A Xanga entry.

This thought has given me such freedom these past few weeks and so I thought that I would share.

It's not about me. I am not living for this life, this world, I am living for another. That means I don't have to live up to the world's expectations or standards. How beautiful is that? God is so good. It's not about me. I am living for a higher calling.

You Alone

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 04:49:36 GMT

YOU are my consolation and my hope

YOU are the sweetness found through my surrender.

YOU are the uplifting of my soul

YOU are my love and my devotion

You are the beauty from the ashes, the solace of my aching heart.

psalm 86

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 05:14:04 GMT

1 Hear, O LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.

2 Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.

3 Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.

4 Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.

5 You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.

6 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.

7 In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.

8 Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.

9 All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.

10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.

12 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.

13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.

14 The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.

15 But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

16 Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant.

17 Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Go to sleep.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 08:00:29 GMT

I'm up-why am I up? I have to get up in a couple of hours...

I think that I will blame this on college....stupid college.

P.S. Xanga has changed....hmm I like it.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 04:20:33 GMT

I haven't updated since June 1...poor xanga.

I just want to talk about how absolutely incredible God is. His faithfulness is magnificent and humbling. He holds the Earth in His hands and yet He remembers every tear that falls from my eyes. I want to be consumed with every fiber of my being...I Praise You Oh God my Father. He is My Reason For Living, for Getting up in the morning. What a glorious God we serve.